i cant get him out of my mind, no matter what i do.
something always reminds me of him.
like today in french.
i was playing a computer game, and was laughing and joking around with Amanda..
"i love games like this, and Shopping Cart Hero!" i said, laughing..
then she goes, "oh, haha. you know who else does?"
at first i didnt get it.
theen it clicked.
he told me he wouldnt be in geography.
so i was sitting at the back of the class, not talking to anyone, getting my work done.
i was feeling really stressed out, and i was really concentrating on my work.
and all of a sudden i just looked up.
and of COURSE he walked in.
smiled at me.
cue my line: "fuck my life."
i just cant get him out of my mind. i thought i was over him, but apparently not. its just getting worse.
its been four months Crystal.
you've never liked someone that long, except THAT PERSON, and that totally doesnt count cuz it was a phase.
snap out of it.
he's just a boy. you dont need him.
but he ISNT just a boy, thats the problem.
he's THAT boy.
and he's amazing.
hell, i dont even want a relationship right now!
i dont WANT to date anyone.
but, as weird as it sounds, as creepy as it sounds...i crave him.
not in a sexual way, not even in a physical way.
i just love being around him, seeing him, talking to him, laughing with him, standing with him, everything.
you have 3 VERY important exams coming up this week.
if you dont do well, YOU ARE GOING TO FAIL.
you need to concentrate and pass these exams.
stop worrying about something thats never going to happen.