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18 November 2009 @ 08:28 am
i've been reading my older entries.
im so depressing D:
he isn't even that great.
funny how a couple months can change things so much.

still loling about the fact that she thought i was in love with her.
me and kim joke about it all the time.
"ooh, watch out kim! i might have homosexual tendancies for you!"
Current Mood: soresore
12 November 2009 @ 03:47 pm
you SERIOUSLY fucking thought/think that i was/am in LOVE WITH YOU?!
omfg. i cant stop laughing.
are you that full of yourself?
words cant describe how amused i am right now.

i can believe that she would spread shit like that,
but honestly?
you BELIEVED it?!

10 October 2009 @ 04:49 pm
saw BMTH with my two good friends and a cute guy.
definitely a good friday.
06 October 2009 @ 07:27 am
the guy wrote me a letter on a pencil.
my friend ate half of it. o_o.
04 October 2009 @ 10:37 am
feel hungover, but didnt drink?
on the other hand, saw Whip It last night.
30 September 2009 @ 07:57 am
been a while since i posted on my own journal.
i feel bad, like i've neglected it.

im sorry journal.
no time right now, but when i get home from school,
i'll write you a big entry :)
i promise!
Current Mood: crappycrappy
Current Music: nothing cuz my cat chewed my head phones :@
12 September 2009 @ 08:35 pm
When you get sick or have a cold, what's your favorite remedy to make you feel better?
one tree hill, my blanket, and the couch. :)
15 June 2009 @ 09:19 pm
i cant get him out of my mind, no matter what i do.
something always reminds me of him.
like today in french.
i was playing a computer game, and was laughing and joking around with Amanda..
"i love games like this, and Shopping Cart Hero!" i said, laughing..
then she goes, "oh, haha. you know who else does?"
at first i didnt get it.
theen it clicked.
like honestly.
he told me he wouldnt be in geography.
so i was sitting at the back of the class, not talking to anyone, getting my work done.
i was feeling really stressed out, and i was really concentrating on my work.
and all of a sudden i just looked up.
and of COURSE he walked in.
smiled at me.

cue my line: "fuck my life."

i just cant get him out of my mind. i thought i was over him, but apparently not. its just getting worse.

its been four months Crystal.
you've never liked someone that long, except THAT PERSON, and that totally doesnt count cuz it was a phase.
snap out of it.
he's just a boy. you dont need him.

but he ISNT just a boy, thats the problem.
he's THAT boy.
and he's amazing.
hell, i dont even want a relationship right now!
i dont WANT to date anyone.
but, as weird as it sounds, as creepy as it sounds...i crave him.
not in a sexual way, not even in a physical way.
i just love being around him, seeing him, talking to him, laughing with him, standing with him, everything.

focus, Crystal.
you have 3 VERY important exams coming up this week.
if you dont do well, YOU ARE GOING TO FAIL.
you need to concentrate and pass these exams.
stop worrying about something thats never going to happen.
10 June 2009 @ 08:35 pm
you know,
you are SO rude.
this is a private place, this is my journal, my blog, my diary, whatEVER you want to call it.
You have no right to look me up on here, and make a fake name so i wont know its you.
she is the only person who i've openly invited to view this journal.
i did NOT invite you.
so i'm going to find some way of blocking you from seeing my posts.
because you have no right.
yes, i realize its on the internet and anyone can see it.
well, i have no problem with strangers seeing it, they dont know me.
but i want you to know that i just lost a LOT of respect for you.
yes, she's my best friend.
you blew it.
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
27 May 2009 @ 10:38 pm
dear you, [yes im aware this is in my own journal]

please make this easier on me.
dont talk to me.
when you're around, ignore me.
dont look at me.
dont make me laugh.
its not fair.
just, please.
i want to hate you.
let me, please?
i dont think i can bear it.
please, let me forget about this.

in pain and confused,